Lyricaltruth's Blog

Love is a risky business. Whether it be a boyfriend/girlfriend, spouse, sister, child, or dear friend – to really love someone means giving of yourself in a way that hurt can happen. Rejection is a real possibility. The love of God is the only “sure-thing” yet like Aslan, He is not a tame lion, and can be made angry, too.  Yet I know – He will never leave me or forsake me. I am secure in His love. My inclination is to only please others and make them happy with me. Yet, there are times when truth is more important than comfort.  It is then, that love comes to the test.

Moving away from the task-oriented self to open my heart to friends has had an unexpected effect. My heart has become so full and sometimes tied up in knots – concerns, prayers, imaginations, fears, and love so painful it wrings my heart. Yet, it is time for this now. As I have said often, and must now live it, “Life is short. There is no time for small talk”.  In a way – trusting to a friend  things that are very precious to me has burst a dam of emotions that I am not quite sure what to do with.  I feel like a child – not knowing the rules. It is so much safer in “the study”. The mind at the helm, is more secure than the heart.  While I know the heart cannot be trusted, entirely – I have given it little room and it was like an unwatered plant. I want to love fully and live without regrets. Perfect love casts out fear.  This must mean God’s kind of love. I believe that there are different kinds of love… the love for a spouse can have many facets – unconditional agape’ love, erotic love, and friendship… but there is a kind of love I have for my friends that can also be overwhelming. The same is true for the rest of my family.

It is one thing to open one’s mind to another. Rejection on this level is painful, but can be mended fairly soon.

Rejection of my very self, my soul, is only redeemable by Christ, himself. If He did not hold me in His hands, I would have no courage to love others.  Yes, love is a risky business. But it was the business of Jesus.  He said, “Greater love has no man than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

God, help me to see as you see, and love as you love, without fear and without regret.

Amen.